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H aco rm c y M eiponoA H o6jaBHO m h j e y to m HeKOAHKO H anH ca. AMaTepcKH c y t o paAOBH S h a h , h a h a o h o c h a h c y H eno3H aTe noAaTKe, HcnpaBA>aAH n o r p e n m e npeACTaBe. H3a3BaAH c y MaAy c e H 3 a ip ijy . M o je j e HMe, S a p y H3BecHHM KpyroBHM a, n o n e A o HeinTo Aa 3HaHH. CpecKH HaneAHHK K p a ja y k o m caM jk h b c o y3HeM Hpno c e Se3 n o T p eS e. M oncA a o h h HHje S h o a o h i HOBeK. MoHCAa j e T paatH o caM o noBOA Aa n o n paBH recT H a K o jn j e S h o npHCHA>eH B H H ie caMHM CHCTeMOM KOMe j e CAyJKHO HeroAH 3axTeBOM T p n o A a h A P y rn x . TeK , BpaTHo Me y CAyxcSy. floAHTHKa j e k o a H ac A oniA a 1947. Y CTBapn h c h i t o KacHHje. He S h x 3H ao TaHHo Aa npeipi3H paM AaTyM. H>om c e HHcaM HHKaA SaBHO, naKO caM no3H aBao H ain e B o b e h BbHxoBe HHA>eBe. H o h h c y MeHe 3HaAH. ToAHKHMa caM S h o yHHTeA>. IIo cA e p e ^ep eH A y M a o a n p e A se roAHHe h HeniTO, AaAH c y m h o p a c h h yHanpeAHAH Me y CAyhcS h, aAH KaKO c y m h c a h a h Aa caM n p e c T a p — neH3HOHHcaAH c y Me. To m h c e HHje A onaAo. H 3A ejcTBOBao caM Aa Me Se3 nAaTe cTaBe H a p a c n o A a r a a e MnHHCTapcTBy HHopMaijHj a . CBaKOM k o Me nHTa, OATOBapaM. A k o 3HaM Aa o a to b o p h m . Aanac h a c m y ceA o. K o a c h h b h y H y n n h a . — A ja ? — y n H T ax . O a t o b o ph o m h je : — Y peA y. EyAH tbhho y A aa c aT a OBAe. A a h tbhho y A sa. Ily T j e AOCTa AaAeK h H an o p aH . IIpeK O cto KHAOMeTapa.

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IIocAe HexoAHKo 6e3ycnemHHX noKymaja Aa caM npoHabeM MHHHCTapcTBO HHopMapHja, rrpHbeM, He3aA0B0Aj3H co 6 o m , caoSpabajuy K.ojn je, c OKpyrAe nAaT^opMime y TPH 6oje, cyBepeHo AnpHroBao 3axYKTaAHM koh> ckhm CHaraMa. — MoJKeTe a h m h p e b n rA e j e MHHHCTapcTBO. . . C a o b p a h a j a i j Me h H e n o r A e A a . II p o n y c T H O j e 6 a p j o m AeceTaK HecTpmbHBHx cH TpoeH a h p e H o a n p e h o mTO m h k a h m h y rAaBOM h ynaAH H a CBe HeTHpn c rp a H e npB eH e ceM acjiope. T aA c n b e c a CBor xmjeAecTaAa, j a n o n p H , yBepA>HBo CHancaH, b h c o k a n p n ja T H a , M en a rA aca. MHHHCTapCTBO? — H H ^Jo p M an n ja! — no»cypHM . O h j e rA eA ao y M0Je ip in eA e noppB eH eA e o a n p an iH H e h , rA e A a jy h n y h >h x , MOJKAa h HHje h o m h caho Aa c y y cbhm apHHKHM rpaAOBHMa acaATHpaH H caM o K0A0B03H 3 a ayTOMo6nAe 6eAHx a>y a h . H Aa c y n e m a m c e T p a x e — ro A a 3eMA>a: 6AaTo y ce30HH K a m a , n p a m H H a — y c y n iH o j. O a HeKaAamH>e k o a o h h jaAH e y n p a B e n y re B a HHje c e cmcao T pajk h t h Aa c a o c e h a c a n em apH M a. B h a h c y to n p m tH . C a o 6 p a h a ja n y to m n a c y cnrypH O HHje m hcaho H a t o . TAeAao j e caM o y M oje ip m eA e a o k j e noAaKO ifp y n c a o p y K y 3 a pyKOBaEbe. — Q a v a ? — y m r r a o M e HeKaKo pirryaA H O , BHm e npncT ojH O HeroAH h c t h h c k h 3aHHTepecoBaHO.

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— Q a v a — oAroBopHM . — A b h ? O h HcnycTH h s k h rpAeHO-HOCHH rA ac, K o jn m h­ c a h m Aa B a& a TpaHCKpnSoBaTH c a a-xa , MaAa HHje 6 h o cacBHM a -x a y OHoj CBojoj MeAOAH03Hoj pa3B yneHOCTH i h t o j e noTBpbHBaAa Aa c e o c e h a A o6 p o , HaKO to m A o S p y He T p e 6 a npniiHCHBaTH cyBHHie 3Han a j a . K a o h i t o r a HHje BaA>aAO n p e ie p a H O A a n i h h H>eroBOM cAeAeheM m rraifcy K o je j e noiiiA o H3 n p o C T o p n ja cAHHHe paA 03H aA e paBHOAyniHOCTH: — K a n o T B oja n o p o A H ija? — : A o 6 p o ! — OABpaTHM A a 6 h x 6 h o A.y6a3aH h c a K p n o CBoje n y b e i i e . — A B a rn a ? — CMaipao caM 3 a HyjKHo A a My c e p e B a m im p a M . O neT o h o h c t o a-xa. H h o b o ite r o B o n H x a a e : — JecH a h A o 6 p o nyTOBao? IIpcT H KojHM a m h j e j o i n yBeK A P ^ tao p y K y 6 h a h c y My xAaAHHjn h BAaatHHjH o a M ojnx. — He HapoHHTo! — o a to b o p h m . — XBaAa! — p e n e H a t o h n aK c e AaKo HaKAOh h , H e o S p a b a jy b n n a a c a y n a T py6A >eaa i h t o c y AOAa3HAa c a c b h x c ip a H a . IIlT a HMa A a m h c e 3axBaA>yje? — JecH a h A o n y ro B a o H3 E B p o n e ? — nH Tao j e AaA>e. — H 3 Jy ro c A a B n je . H e AHHtyhn norA eA c M o jn x rp m eA a, j o in yBeK GTHmhyhH m h p a c e ja H o p yK y, p e n e : — CAanceM c e . IIlT a HMa Aa c e cA axce? D lT a HMa K or baBOAa Aa 3axBaA>yje? C A arao c e h a h He, j a A°Aa3HM oAaKAe AOA33HM h to j e m o t e r a m a K o ja He TpaacH C A a ra a e Aa 6 h 6 n A a oho h it o je c T e — H H aeH m ia. H>y j e Aoboa >h o ca3HaTH h TanK a. y h c t h M ax noMHCAHM: MOjKAa j e o h p e K a o A a c e cAance 3aTo h i t o j e roAHHaMa 6 h o npHCHA>aBaH Aa H 3B pm yje CBaKH npoxT eB KOAOHa h Aa c e c a o h c h c a CBaKOM H.HXOBOM peHHJ MOHCAa j e MHCAHO caM y>K yp6aH o AaA>e — p e K a o Aa c e cA axce K ao n r r o j e p e K a o n p e T o ra x e a jia , n p o c T o 3aTO n r r o My j e cj>paH-

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T pO C , KaA CH M e IIH T aO O aH H M H 3 M y H n p e A O rH H H O M MHHiA>eH>y, p a 3 M i m i A j a o c a M O T K yA t h n p e n o T e H i p i j a A a n p e T n o c T a B H H i A a j e c e A ia K y T B o j o j 3eMA>H A P y K H H jn o a i i p H o r p l a n t e u r a . H e r n b y j e a h h o h A a 6 h c e c a n y B a o o a y p o K a ? H e x B a T a j y a h c e h m h o th o a B a c H a jim c o A O B a H H jH x 3 a A p s o A a 6 h c e 3 a iP T H th a h o a H ecpehH H X m hcah? H e M a H a m e n p e A p a c y A e K o j a H H je npeB O A A > H B a H a H eK O B a n i e n p a 3 H O B e p j e . H e npeB O A e c e caM o n a M e ra e C T B apn. H r A y n o c r a c y n p e B o aa>hb e . n a p e p n , K a A j e B e h T a K o , 3 a i i r r o A a n p e T n o c T a B H M A a B a m C B em xeH H K p a c n o A a a c e B ehH M n y A O T B o p H H M B e u iT H H a M a H e r o A H H a m M a p a 6 y ? H e M aM a h n p a B a ? — J a caM 6e36oacH H K . — H H ceH C K a C T p a a o B H p a H e B e p y j e y 6 o r a , n a K o a h h h H a K e p e p p ! — npoM pcn A non.

— n iT a t h A p y ro n p e o c T a je ? — ynH Ta HCTOBpeMeHO M aM 6 y nana. B h CTe c b o t 6 o r a AaBHo nojeA H h nortHAH. YocTaAOM, jeA aH Moj yneHHK, caA me K a6nH eT a k o a H ac y M HHHcrapcTBy, A o n iao m h j e y n o ceT y . A k o x o h e rn Aa 3H am , 3aTo caM h 3aAopHHO. H o c h o j e c a co 6 o m nocAeAH>H 6 p o j HeKHx paHpyc k h x H A y cT p ap n ja. H a K o p n p aM a — KpaA> BoAyeH h B e p e im p a . CAaTKO c e CMeme jeAHO H a A p y ro K ao Aa y 6 o r a h A>y6aB B e p y jy . A o h o — B p a n cjn A>y6aBh h h h h aHheAH! AyM yM 6y 6ecnpaBH O y x a n c y A P^te 6 a m n o Hapefeeity t o t KpaA>a, t o t baBOA>er ro'cnoA ap a. Je c H a h n y o m T a paA e n o ceAHMa E aA y 6 a? H a K o p m jaM a H A y cT p an n ja c e Taj KpaA> 6 a j a r n B epeh h h k h cMeniH, to 6 o h c caM o y BepeHHHKH npcTeH rAeAa, a p y K e My KpBaBe. YocTaAOM, B ac 6eAOKOinpe, B ac nopro daneho, m h cm o p a n n j e 3 b b a h h nopruo 6one, m r o 3HanH ppBeHOKompH, B ac, eTO, OTBopeHO npH 3H ajeM , j a 3 a n p a B o h He h ccah m Aa pa3yM eM . —

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YjeAHH>eHHx Haimja, ^oMSe je 3a panyH EeArnjaHapa no6no Ha xha>3A6 h xHA>aAe EaAy6a. XaMapmeAA* npHMa 3HaH>y, o ciaje MirpaH, naK H3pancaBa caynemiie nopoAHpaMa. Aah KaA Troem-a yxancn jeAHor EeATHjcLHpa, XaMapmeAA napebyje Aa ce H3BpiiiH OAMa3Aa HaA ceAHMa EaAy6a. JeAaH 6eAan h y OHHMa ceKpeTapa YjeAHH>eHHx Haipija, HHjn cy HAahobh h a4>pHHKe AP^aBe, K orapa XHA>aAy h xHA>aAy n y ra BHme o a cbhx nonHmaHHx HpHapa 3ajeAHo. Ila OHAa canyBaj Bepy y 6paTCTBO h jeAHaKocT. Yhyra Ha jo m hcko BpeMe. KaA nporoBopn, 6 ho je raeBaH, elah cy3AP»caH: — Ila miaK, Tpe6a BepoBara y to. To je HCTHHa. Aah Aa HCTHHa nocxaHe hcthhb, xpe6a je ocBojnxH.

* Taj je pa3roBop BofeeH KpajeM AeueMSpa I960. ^loMSe, Koja je OTaA no HapeBeity CBojnx nocAOAaBana y6iio AyMyMSy h Kacmije caMor XaMapmeAAa, cBojHM je nocTynHHMa AOKa3ao Aa HHje rpeuiHo MsusiSy liana, Hero XaMap­ meAA, Ta HtpTBa CBoje noAHTmce Heomrpaaa hoahthhh Compagnte Mini&re de Catanga. Tfajn je H3BpmHAaq *IoM6e.

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CnoA>HH 3 h a — M eT ap b h c o k ; yHyTpaiiiH >H , HMa noA ynpeH H H K K p a h n 3 a jeAHO o ca M a o A eceT C T ona; K poB — o a CTOTHHy cH o n o B a CAaMe; HHTAe n p o 3 o p a ; ca M o yA a3 K ojH c e H o h y 3 a T B a p a H 3H yTpa; H 3 0A ai(H ja c a B p m e H a ; h 3 a B peM e H a jB e h n x JK e ra y Ka3H j e n p H jaTHO h CBence; H a 3eMA>aHOM n o A y — h c k o a h k o a c y p a ; y yrAOBHM a — HHCKe nenypK O A H K e A p se H e CTOAHHHite; H a 3HAy °A HAOBane — n o H e K a n o A H p a , noH eK H k a h h . T o j e o K p y rA a apHHKa K a3 a . H M a h x h neT B pT acT H x. A a h OBa j e 6 n A a O K pyrA a. MyjKeBA>eBa c e H aAa3H o 6 h h h o y cpeAHHH o r p a feeH or A B opH niT a. H h n o n eM y c e H e p a3 A H K y je o a ocTaAHX n e r a p H , n eT , n a h BHUie. C B aK a a c e H a HMa C B ojy. A o k c y j o j A e u a M a/ia, M a jK a c e H e O A s a ja o a h >h x . IIocAe, a o ^ceH H A Se h y A a je , 6paha — m o m u h h c e c r p e — A eB ojK e n a m e y OABojeHHM K a3aM a.

OTan h c h h ceAe jeAaH npeMa ApyroM h , He ta & Aajyhn ce, nocTaBA>ajy jeAaH apytom nHTaH>a: Kak o c h ? Kano 4>aMHAHja? A t h a h h h o ? M aM 6y l i a n a j e HMao n e r a p n HceHe. H ajM A ab a My j e jo m y h c h b o ty . TaM o y r p a A y . B n h e j o j o r a p n AHKe n e ip A eceT aK AeTa. ToAHHe c e HHKaA Ty TanHO He 3H ajy. KpHAe c y c e n p e A y ro . n o p e 3 a c e nA ahaA a n o TAaBH. H o B o p o b e H n e j e neKaAO h n o AeceTaK roAHHa Aa 6yA e npHjaBA>eHO K ao jeA H oroA ne. A e u e ? JeAHo neT H aecT opo j e HMao. H em TO je , Aa6oM e, n o MpAO. CBe c y My HCHBe b e p K e noyA aB aH e, h c h b h c h -

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noJKeH>eHH. CaA cmo y n o c e r a jeAHOM oa h >h x . K ojeM n o p eA y ? — Ko 6 h t o 3H ao? Hnje h h H a jc ra p n jH , h h H ajM Aabn. IleAeceTaK M y je roAHHa. AMaAY ce 30Be. B e c e o HHane h o bck , ma/bHBHHHa, ctbaho HaMHr y j e h n p c K a y K pynaH ABocrpyKH cM ex: y3Aa3Ha MeAOAHja h T e p u a y cHHKonn. E h o j e K ao MAaAnh neT ro A n n a y IIa p H 3 y . PaAHO CBaniTa. I l p a o cyAOBe h n A ecao y 6 a p y . Ile T nceH a caA HMa h A saA e cei h ABo j e A ene. 3KeHa K o ja yAa3H A>ymca je , c h t h b , AOCTa cbbTAe n o n c e . A Be n o c y A e cTaBA>a H a noA H3Meby H ac. Y 6eAOM j e A aB opy n n p H H an , y a h m c h o m A o m m y — A>yTH c o k . IlHpHHaH c e r p a 6 n n p c n m a H3 A aB opa h yM an e y AOHHHh. P y n e h h c m o npaA H n p e B en ep e. Y to m K p a jy HeMa ao b o a> h o b o a c . E[peTnocTaBA>aM Aa h h k o m HHcy npA>aBHje o a M ojnx, n p e M a TOMe — a o Ae x H rn j eHCKe npeA p acy A e! A n o n , M aM 6y, AMaAy, j a — peAOM rpa6HM O h yManeMO n n p H H an. — TAeAaj 6 eA n a, noA H ocn A>yro! — Kance Anon, Kojn n y n iT a SpaA H py. H AMaAy je H M a. — OTKaA HocHTe 6 p a A y ? — E eA ap j e n p H M e ra o Aa h o c h m o 6paA y! — Kance Anon. AMaAy c e CMeje: b o a o c k o k y c h h k o iih p a H o j T ep im . Hank o S ja m a a B a nyHHM ycTHMa: — OTKaA j e A yM yM 6a y x a n m e H , m h o th x o h e Aa AHne H a H .era. EpaAOM j e to H ajA aK ine. 0 6 p H caB m H n p c T e o noH>aBy o a naA M m m x BAaKaHa Ha K o jo j cm o ceAeAH, l i a n a H 3 nbe H3 K a3e HHM j e yTOAHO TAaAAMaAyoBa HteHa y H ece rpo3A 6aH aH a, cthbh r a n o p e A M ynca h oAMax c e n o B y n e. — Y IIa p H 3 y caM H a y h h o Aa jeAeM t o MajMyHc k o Bobe. l i p e HHcaM M o rao Aa c m h c a h m n p e c H y 6aH aH y. CaA m h j e Ta n a p n c K a HaBHKa ocTaAa! H C M e je c e rAacHO. — J e a h to jeAHHO p it o CTe AOHeAH H3 E B p o n e? — T y6ep K y A 0 3 y caM jeA Ba H3AenHO. Bparao hobh

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AMaAY ce Ayro cMejao. — IIlTa mhcahui, ja CBane hoIxh ca cbhx neT? H oneT npacax h CHHKonnpaHo ineHAyHeH>e y TepiiH. OHAa ce yo36ha>h. — Y JKHBOTy CTBapn CToje ApyKHHje. JeAHa nceHa hah Ase o6hhho cy mh TpyAHe. Te ce He Anpajy. JeAHa hah ABe — Aoje. Harne HteHe xpaHe Aeiiy npCHMa roAHHy, ABe, na h tph . H h Te ce He AHpaljy, HHane 6h hm ce MAeKO noKBapnAO. npaKTHHHO ocTaje jeAHa. . . — A ocTaAe? H ncy ah A>y6oMopHe? — 3amTO 6h to OHAe? Mh ce y cBeMy TOMe cnopTCKHje noHamaMo oa sac. OHa HajcTapnja cmeTpa Aa je npBa h Aa je cemhm thm H3HaA cbhx ocTaAHX. HajAenmoj je oneT aoboa>ho to ca3HaH>e Aa 6h 6nAa 3aAOBOA>Ha. H3Meby Mojnx neT aceHa, jeAHa je cnrypHo HajnaMeraHja. OHa mhcah Aa 6e3 aeHHX caBera He 6hx HHniTa nocTHrao. H3Meby neT, jeAHa je o6aBe3Ho HajApaxca. Ta je cpehHa nrro je Myxc HajBHme boah jep My Hajnenxbe cnpeMa Benepy. H, Haj3aA, HajMAaba xceHa o6hhho mhcah Aa ne HaAJKHBeTH ocTaAe, na je 3aAOBOA>HHja oa cbhx. Pa3yMem? — He. H o HHje ah yrrpaBO cbekh oa thx HaBeAeHHx npecTHJKHHx pa3Aora H3Bop CTaAHe HeTpneAjHbocth H3Meby tbojhx xceHa? — HHKaKo CTaAHe. Ao CBaba h Bmce o6hhho He AOAa3H necTO. Aah arco Aobe, Ty je Myxc. CaMO. Hame cy xceHe KpoTKe. Banie BOAe, Kaxo Aa KaxceM, BOAe MyniKapne, yxcHBajy c ibhme y HHHy A>y6aBH, He3acHTe cy. Harue HMajy MaTepHHckh HaroH, BOAe Aa ce Ma3e h BOAe Aa cmo hokhh c H>HMa, aAH caM hhh . . . noAHOce ra, h to je CBe. nacHBHe cy. — 3anrro? — EKCHH3Hja!

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— 3 H a m i a h Aa 6 h y B o b em e caBpeM em ijHX a r p o TexHHHKHX h caHHTapHHx M epa nocTeneHO ymmHAO BHmenceHCTBO h 3 A h h ih h m ? — H eM y? H aM a HHje A om e h h oBaKO. H eM ojTe m h c a h t h A a j e c p e h a jeAHHO y TexHHmcoM n p o r p e c y . O a KaAa c y k o a o h h o t h i h a h , H H urra Me He t o h h Aa m h c a h m H a npoM eH e. PaAHM y noA>y, He n p e x e p a H o . 3 a m x o 6 h x KaA He T p e 6 a ? K p a j MeHe j e Ba3Aa a o boa>ho OApacAHx cHHOBa Aa m h noM orH y. A a h h h o h h He p aA e M Horo. K o a H ac c e He M o p a a y ^ o k o h nyHO Aa K o n a A a 6 h c e o cH ry p aA a x p a H a h ocTaAo. A ceM OApacAHx CHHOBa K o jn m h noM aHcy y paA y, hm bm yBeK h ao b o a> h o c h t h c A epe Aa Me p a3 ra A e. O Ha c y m h MecTO KaaHe, n o 3opH m T a. A a HMaM caMO jeAHy xceHy, h Aa j e o a o h b k b h x ycnaA>eHHX nA aB ym a KaKBe caM HMao npHAHKe A a yno3H aM y IIap H 3 y , h h t h 6 h x AoxcHBeo oBe roAHHe, h h t h 5 h x 6 h o TaKO c p e h aH . J e p j a ceim c p e h a H HOBeK. Y noAHe p y n aM c a CBHMa yKyhaHHM a. TaA j e 3a6aB H o « HCHBaxHO. A yB en e xceH a k o a K o je h y HohHTH CKyBa m h B en ep y . TaA j e n p H ja r a o . M aM 6 y l i a n a y fe e o 3 a p e H . » B a K a T e j e p a c n o A o HceH A a T e b h a h h A a t h n e B a . B p n c e « . O npocT H M c e c A M aA yoM , H3jy p H M y H o h .

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T o p e — oH aj h c t h ycaMA>eHH noA yM ecep. H OHa HCTa HCKpHHaBa CBeTAOCT H aA HOTOCTynOM Kp03 IIIHK ap y . BaK aTeoB e Ka3e 6 h a c c y yAaA>eHe BHHie o a KHAOMeTpa h n o . A s c h o K p aj H ac jaBHAe c y c e ABe HcyhKacTe yA>aHe AaMne. OAaHAe c y AOAaBHAH yA apHH TaM-TaMa. C Ta3a j e HarAo 3aBHAa h BOAHAa caA n p a B o k ftHM a. C a neA eceTaK M eT apa B eh, BHAeAe c y c e A se A y re KAyne c A saA eceTaK A e n a w ih a H a AeBoj h Heh i t o BHHie AeBojHHpa H a A ecH oj. H 3 M eh y KAyna n eT B o p o y rao y x a 6 a H e 3eMA>e. Y A ny — A sa TaM-TaMa, T p y 6 a h 6eAa4>OH. CBH pan j e HMao n p a n o p n e o k o HA anaK a p y K y h H ory. Y n a c y KaA cm o HaHAa3HAH, T p y S a n je cHaacHO

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OAHCTa, A e B o jn n p a c e , CBa H 3rpyB aH a, hyTKe AHTAa c KAyne h H aw Aa Ha n eT B opoyrA y y ra S a H e 3eMA>e. JeAaH A e n a n n h ycTaA e 3 a h>om h OAMax n o ­ n e Aa H rp a . C n p B a AOCTa MeKO, m b a o AeHbo h K ao yM opH o, aAH c a CBaKHM TaKTOM n A ecao j e CBe jk h b A>e, CBe aH rancoB aH H je. A eB° j 'tiim a , c T o je h n n p eM a BbeMy, CMenraAa c e h O A cyrao jo m yBeK Tpym caA a H OHawaM a y noAHBHHHACKHM HcyTHM caHAaAaMa. A a h n ocA e H eK or BpeM eHa aoh>h Aeo H>eHor TeAa, yBHjeH y CBeTao nAaTHeHH nan, c OAnrraMnaHHM KapTaMa 3 a n o K e p , n o n e A a c e yB H ja, KOMema, canA H he, ApxTH, T p e n e p n , pa3rAaBA>yje, a o m h ; y n p K o c HHH>eh h h h Aa j e 6 h a o H en er no3HaTO opnjeH T aA H or h h o n e n K o r y H>eHOM H a m m y n A e c a w a , 4>aciwHHpaH, j a caM rAeAao A enaK a h A eB o jn n n y K o jn c y , caA c acbh m npeAaHH n r p n , h 3 b o a h a h CAo6oAHe Kopeorpacj>CKe B a p n ja iw je H a n p a c T a p e MOTHBe epoTCKor HHHa; b a h h h h h a h c y h x c t o a h k o 4>aHTa3Hje h a K p o 6 a T C K e C K O pO B H p T y 0 3 H 0 C T H , C TOAHKO pH T M H H -

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c y , riom aB iiiH o a jeA H or K opaK a H a A sa h a h T pn y A a p n a AAaHoM y TaM-TaM, B eh h h h h a h n o neT-m ecT n o n p e T a H3Meby TaMa h TaMa, yBeK y CKAaAy jeAHO c ApyrHM, K ao yBenchaHH npocJiecHOHaAHH nAecamcH n a p , caM o 6oA>e, c p n a m ije , OAaHHje ho HjeAaH K o jn caM BHAeo, ManiTOBHTHje h h h cth j e y 6e36pm K H oj n y H o j BeceAOCTH h H eonncH B oj jeA H oj p a jc K o j c p e SLh K o ja c e oa th x M aA H m ana HomeHHX p h t m o m n p o CTHpaAa y h o H n p o b n je H y rAaAHOM MecenHHOM h MyTHOM CBeTAomhy H3 npa3HHX a h m ch h x n o cy A a y KojHMa j e ropeA O naAMHHo yA>e. A e B o jn ra ia j e H r p a jy h n rAyMHAa, 3anyA o a y re H t h h h o , CTpacT BeAHKHX A>y6aBHHpa, TpecA a j e H enoC T ojehe rpyA H h , A eSA ehn CKopo HenpeKHAHo y Ba3A yxy, jeA Ba AOAHpimaAa TAe, n p n neM y j e CBe n cypHHje KpuiHAa CBoje 3aAH>HHHne h BaA>aAa yAerAHM T phym nH heM ; a o k c e A e n a n n h , K o jn c n ry p H o h h KaKBHX HCKycTaBa y ohAacTH epoTHKe TaK obe jo m HHje HMao h h t h M o rao HMaTH, T p e c a o TaKo y6eAa>hbo peAHM TeAOM, KOAyrao orpoMHHM 6eoH>anaMa, HCTypao jeA aH ocM ex caB o a h h c t c 6eAHHe h n r p a o K ao Aa 3Ha o a ^ e r a c y noniA H n o K p e r a K oje j e h h h h o , HHMe c e t o H H c n n p n m e H>eroB 3aHOc, o a KaKBe c e CTBapHocTH o h oTHCHyo a o Te cyrecTHBHHje o a cTBapHocTH cTHAH3aim je MyncjaHKHX H anaA a h n te A>a, npeA K ojnM a c e , K ao A pxT ehn CBe 3aBOAA>HBHje, noBAanHAa H>eroBa n a p r a e p K a .

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e H (J)o p M e A H H x C T p y K T y p a A H H x x p a a c e i s a . A a h h h j e ­ A H a , M a k o a h k o no c e S n A n c o H a H T H a K O M S H H a n n ja , H H je A e A O B a A a H e M o r y h e . K a o A a c e h H a jK a K o c jjo H H H H H je 6 o j e H H c y B e 3 H B a A e y C B O jo j H e ip n e A > H B O c t h 3 a OHe h i t o c y h m c e A npeK T H O npoT H B H A e n a K h K aA c y c e H a A a 3 H A e je A H e y 3 A p y r e . C B e c y c e B e3 e 6 0 j a BaA >A a y c n o c T a B A > a A e n o c p e A H o , h t o n p e K O T a M H e , y j e A H a n e H e K o x c e A n n a . Be3yjyhn c e 3a H>y, 6 o j y K o n c e n p B O , H enoM H pA >H B O C T H c y c e y S A a n c a B a A e H a K o m y A > H , n a K M n p H A e h , c M H p e H e , A eA O B aA e xapM O H H H H O . B h o c a M y S e b e H A a 6 e 3 B e3 H B H o r TK H B a a (j> p H K aH C K e n H T M e H T a im je , M H p a h HCHBOTa M e b y th m S o ja M a H e 6 h 6 h a o . Ha 3HaK TpySana, h o b h je nap y c k o h h o A a 3a-

MeHH irpBH, HH 3aAOBOA>aH, HH He3aAOBOA>aH HITO ce B p a h a H a CBoje KAyne; h h yM opaH , h h HeyM opaH. IIocA yH iaH caM o. K a o 3 P h k h b h h K o jn c e OAjeAHOM y n p e A a x y TaM -iaM a ja B e m h o t h , c a c b h x CTpaHa, HHjaHHM, 6e3pa3AOHCHHM, MeceHapCKHM TAaCOBHMa.

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6 o p a H a o b o A jH O 3 a C B o j B e K , p e T K 0 3 y 6 , H c n p m e H o r , ti B c p H O B a T o r n e A a , H H je c e A n r a o c a H H C K e, H 3 p e 3 6 a p e H e CTOAHpe K a K B e c y H e n a A iiA eM eH C K H M i n e (jjO B H M a C A yjK H A e K a o n p e c T O A > a . I I p y x c H O m h j e h y i K e X A aA H y , B A a x c H y , M e K y m a K y ; n r a p o K H p y K a B KA H 3 H y o M y j e a o 6 e 3 M e c H e c x a p a n K e M H ii m p e . H o , n p e o c e T A > H B , O A M a x j e K H H y o h , y n A a m e H o B H iu e h o 3H M o r p o 3 HBO , n o B y K a o p y K y . A o k j y j e c n y u i T a o c e 6 n y K pH A O , p y K a B j y j e 6 p 3 0 n o K p n o . C eo caM y TonAy ppB eH y n p an iH H y npeA h >h m . l i a n a c e cnycTHO a o MeHe. EaAae acyS opHO, 3aKAOH>eH o a H ac. YAapaA>Ke HHcy AOTHpaAe acH pe. P eK ao 6 h x n p e Aa j e to HeKH k o a h 6 p h hyAa >hbo CKaKyTao AOAe-rope n o creneH H p aM a oa BOAe. A ko j e to M o ry h e . J e p b o a s HHOTKyA. TpA o j e cyBO.

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t b p a h A a o h H M a c a M o n e A e c e T ro A H H a . A a h je A a H M a p a 6 y K o j n j e 6 h o c h>hm k o a C a M o p n j a t b p a h A a j e T aA s e h H M ao 1500 ro A H H a . H e T p e 6 a c e OAMax c M e j a r a cM en ra o M . n p B o T p e 6 a p a 3y M e r a j e a h 3 a n c T a c M e n r a o o h o n e M y cm o c k a o h h A a c e noACM exHeM O. Oh j e H3 K y h e n n j a aceHCKa A0 3 a A a j e necH H K e o a naM TH BeK a. C b h c y H>eroBH neB aA H h c n r y p H o j e A a h e A^Te H eK e o a BberoBHX c e c T a p a HacTaBHTH T y aeA C K y T p aA H p H jy. 3 anryM H A a j e H erA e 6 AH3 y b h c o k b T p a B a . H e , B a K a T e j e n o n e o A a MpMA>a. C n o n e T K a HHcaM p a 3 a 3 H a B a o n iT a j e 3 H an H o T aj 6 p y j t b p a h x T p a B a , T aj

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inyM AHmha. IIocAe OATOHeraeM pen. IIoHaBA>ao je jeAHy jeAHHy. floniTO je ABaAeceTaK xiyTa raroBopno A(j)pHKa, A(j>pHKa, none Aa Be3yje Ase-Tpn penn: »CpaMOTa Me, A(J>phko. CpaMOTa Me, Aphko, Hohn, ce6e h Te6e.« OHAa je CTao Aa H3roBapa caMO jeAHy pen: hoH , Hoh, Hoh. To noHHH>aH>e necMe a h h h a o je Ha Ayro HeoApebeHO y3AHcaH>e, h h TyjKHo, h h He, Ha Heicy 6op6y 3a h o b h npocTop y npocTopy; Ha JKaAocT npeA Heno pab a a e Kpaja h oSpnca, 6e3 aKneHTa h HHcjjAeKcnja. BaKaTe je AocTa Ayro TaKo y3AHcao h H3AHcao. A a h oAjeAHOM H3 rpyAH My ce jacHo npoSn rAac. O h h ih KHy 3anpaBO. Iteo ce t o h o b c k npeTBapao npeAa m hom y CBoj rAac. HaAHK Ha a y S o k o Heimro h CBet a o . Kao Mecen. Ee3 TeAa h Anna. CaMO o a ycTa h o a penn. IIpBH ce CTHX H3BHO b h c o k o . MoJKAa AaA>e OA H3Bopa CBeTAOCTH, aAH je a o h o c h o CAyTH»y AaHa. He o 6 h h h h x . E n A a j e t o cAyTBba AaHa o a HeKe HCKOHCKe je3e h CTpaBe. MoHCAa m h ce t o y h h h h a o caMO 3aTo nrro je, ynpKoc xpanaBoj AHpeKTHocra, H>eroB roBop 6 h o 3panaH h h i t o je, ynpKoc HanoHy cHare, 6 h o pa3AHBeHO nopa3aH. Kao caH K o jn HHje o h caMO caH>ao. npecTao je Beh o a HeKor BpeMeHa Aa A03HBa je A H y A p y r y h o & , H e OHy h i t o c e o ir a p a A a h K OCTpe-

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p n j y Acfjpmce. A a h Te h o Bh HHje 6 h a o 6 h t h o o h o iuT a j e E aicaT e KaaHBao, H e ro KaKO j e to KaaHBaHO BaAHo H3 c e 6 e . H to H e H3 c e 6 e — c e 6 e . H 3 c e 6 e — CBeA>yACKe nponiA ocT H K ao A a j e H3MaMA»HBao p e n n . EyAaAacTO o6a3pH B , 3a6eAencHO caM caM o HeKe cth xoBaH e n o A a n c e . H eno3H aT e. CaA m h j e n cao: Tpe6aA o j e cB e c r a x o B e oA peA a. A a caM 6oA>e no3H aB ao ycM eHy noeTCKy TpaAHHHjy ApHKe — K a3yjeM to ABa M ecen a KacHHje — j a o h x , s H a jy h n n r r a je c y h n r r a HHcy o6aBe3HH enHTeTH h K A innea HacAefeeHe e n c n e 4>opMyAe A o m ae Aa 3aMeHH h n o M o ra e necHHKOBOM cT B apam y Ha tc K y h o j TpaijH , j a 6 h x naaT H o AaHaK ycxHBeH.a caM o OHHM CAHKaMa H CTHXOBHMa H30HAHM H3 npaBOT HaA axH yha. OsaKO caM c e n p o c T H p a o n p eA cbbkom penH . CBejeAHO. H h h h a o m h c e Aa j e C Bana nyA ecH o ayreHTHHHa, o c e B a o caM c e n p im e M K o jn h o c h A4>pnKy y c e S n , ApHKy TaKO CBeTy naTH.OM h T an o BeAHKy yncacoM A a H3 3axBaAHocTH 3 a t o , caA, A sa M ecen a KacHHje, npHMaM H a A y m y h B e p o B a ra o aeAc k o niapAaTaHCTBo. CacBHM 6e3ycAOBHo ynoTpe6A>aBaM Ty p e n . H e M ap n . H e K a caM h ncpTBa yjeA H an eH o r B p a h a a a h noHaBA>aH>a. Pm raM , y n p K o c Henc t h h h h HenpnpoAHOCTH, noeTCKa j e peaAHOCT BeKOBHMa cTaBA>aHa h HecTaBA>eHa y cyMH>y. H eK a caM 6 h o h o n n je H npec|>a6pHKOBaHHM o 6 a h k o m y K o jn j e CTpnaH HCTopnjoM A a r a caAP^Kaj. H eK a. B e p o B a ra o 6 h c e h 4>a6yAa K o jy j e n eB ao 6oA>e o c e iia A a y opMH j o m HeH3MHHiA>eHoj. MoHCAa 6 h j o j 6 h a o jo m 6oA>e Aa j e caM a, H a c T a jy B a cnoH TaH H je, A orpaB nB aA a c e 6 e K opaK n o K opaK c a o S a h k o m . CaA K a3yjeM Ta ABa Mootcda. A a h cA yinajy& H B aK aT ea, HCHBeo caM caB y n a c y T o r CBor c A y m a m a h HCTOBpeMeHO x h A>aAe roAHHa n p e , h CTOAeha n ocA e, h mocaKBHx rrpnro B o p a HHcaM HM ao. E h o caM caM o y c x n h e H h c p e BaH. H M ao ocehaH >e A a nocTojH M n o T n y tm je h o HKaA. Y cBaKOM p a j y c a M o o c e h a a a KpHTHKa j e « e 3 a -

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r a e B a h CMpTH. Y S m j e 6 H B a j y y S n j e H e . KaA-TaA. T o j e 3aK O H . A oA a3H A n c y c n p B a A a 6 h o a b y k a h p o 6 o B e n p e k o M o p a . A o A a3 H A n c y A a caM H n o c T a H y x p a H a t o a o B p aT H X O pA O B a H T ep M H T a H 3 T e p M H T H je p a i i i t o c y c e t h x r o A H H a H aM H O ^K H A e a y > k c b h x O o j i n i r r a h H e c T a . Hh A (j> p H K a c e ymhphth H H je A a A a . Hh A a r a M o r A a . 3eM A > a j e h O H a c A>yAHM a h c x h m K a o c B y A a A>yAH h i t o c y .

noCAeAH>H BeAHKH apHHKH paTHHK nOA HH]HM c y yAappHMa HecTajaAe 6e36pojH e k o a o h c paimyc k h x 3aB ojeB ana 3Bao ce CaM opn T y p e , H3 3eMA>e MaHAHHra, H3 rp aA a MHH>a6aAaHAyrya. C npoM aiiiH o j e 6 hao H>eroBO a o th h >ctbo , nAeMeHHTO j e ao c m p t h ocTaAo H>eroBo c p u e . A a OTKyim CBojy M ajK y K o jy j e 3 a p o 6 n o noKpajHHCKH mec|> h BeAHKH p a ra H K C o p n E n p a M a , m a b a h j e C aM opn T y p e n p n c T a o A a My 6yA e BojHHK nyHHx ceAaM roAHHa. 3aCAyJKHBXIIH 6 p 3 0 nOK33aHHM jyHaHITBOM h paT-

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6 h o y cn eo Aa noM Hpn 3aKpBA>eHe H3Mehy ce 6 e meOBe K p aja y K ojn j e Aornao Aa h c h b h . H Aa h x , noMHpeHe, cTaBH y CAyxc6y HAeaAa K o jn j e a o t h h h o TpeSaAo Aa 3aH ecy h o ciaA e c h HOBe A(j>pHKe. n o A a 3 e h n h h o a H era, a e r o B a c e BAacT y 6 p 3 o npoiiiH pH A a AaAeKo. Y cK o p o c e npocT H paA a o a h3B o p a H n r e p a a o o S A a c ra m yM a H a j y r y , o a K paA>eBHHe CHKaco a o ApJKaBe A m a A y a . 3 a rrpecTOHHijy j e y 3 e o BH caH A yry. 3 6 o r MeceHHHe K o ja TaMO H ajC H a JK H H je 6 A H C T a .

Y3 BojHHHKe BpAHHe, OTKpHo j e y ce 6 n h AP^caBHHHKe. Y3 ynpaBA>aHKe, h OHe M yA papa. O TB apao j e HiKOAe CByAa h a o h o c h o npaBHHHe 3aKOHe, HHjy c y ■6AarOTBOpHOCT yBHhaAH CBH A>yAH AOCTOjHH TOT HMOHa.

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IIpH to m j e HapoHHTy naacHby o 6 p a h a o Ha BojCKy, K ojy je CBy oAeHyo y jeAHaKa a c y ra OAeAa h Haop y acao opyacjeM o t c t h m HenpHjaTeA»y h a h HaHHH»eh h m y AHBHnuaMa h KOBaHHHpaMa HHje j e CTBapaite TaKobe n o A c r a p a o .

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c y r a j o in pa3A aajaA H oa noB paT K a A n y eA ea K a p a ­ MOKO, oa n o B p ax K a A>y6AjeHor CHHa M ajK e A nyA e. H a j3 a A c e h o h B p a x n o H3 I I a p n 3 a , rA e j e BHAeo orpoM H e (JiaSpHKe TonoB a h MHxpaA>e3a, noA H roH e h K acapH e, n a j e h y jeAHOM 6aAOHy, A eSA ehn K ao n x im a , npeA eT eo b h c o k o , b h c o k o HaA Mapcoetm nojbeM . 0(j)HHHpH K o jn c y c e CTapaAH o H>eMy b o a h a h c y r a H a nA ecoB e h CBenaHocxn. M oH tA a c e h 3 ax o A>y6A>eHH KapaMOKO, c h h M ajKe A n y A e, B p a x a o 36yH>eH H3 3eMA>e H e n p n ja x e A a . T o j e CBe nojMA>HBO. A p y r o j e Hbera yHHmxHAo; AonycTHBiHH My A a y h h h h CMpxHy rp e im c y . A oneK aH o a o u a oK pynceH or cb h m cBojHM a o rAaBHHHHMa, KapaMOKO j e x o a h k o 6 h o MAaA h MaAoyMaH A a H3peKHe, j o m 3aA nxaH o a n y x a , n p e h o m x o j e Ma K or H3 n p a x m e y irn x a o K a n o My HAe, n p e h o m x o j e 3arpA H o CBor poAHxeA>a: »One, H eM oryhe j e 6 o p n x H c e npoxH B HMa«.

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ce cnoAa 3a3HAa yAa3. OcraBHTH CHHa Kora cy 3aBeAH HenpnjaTeAjH Aa yMpe o a rAaAH HHje cypoBOCT cpija, Hero cypoBOCT h y x c h o c th . Ha neAy cBojnx co4>a, KpeHy 3bthm CaMopn Ha paHHy3e Aa o c b c t h Tenney c m p t CHHa h h>hxobo BepoAOMCTBO. Y CnrypHjy cy My t h x AaHa, y3rpeA 6yAH peneHO, aAH jeAHor BojHHKa. O a TaA n a 3 aA y ro , MHpa HHje 6 h a o . CeAaM j e nyHHX roAHHa T p a ja o Taj paT . paHCH c y ocTaBHAH 6 e 3 6 p o j C Bojnx CHHOBa n o caBaH aM a, n p am y M aM a h n n n c a p a M a . M h o th c y c e AaBHAH y H n r e p y h B o a t h , yMHpaAH y n e c x y C a x a p e h Mefey AHjaHaMa TaH e. M H o re c y caTpA e 6 o accth . A a h H a jB e h n 6 p o j' h x j e norH H yo oa MeTKa h a h ca6A>e CaM opnjeBHX co4>a. BojHHHKa KberoBa e n p e r a a x p a 6 p o c T y to j e BpeM e 3aAHBA>aBaAa h HenpHjaTeA>e. H >eroBa cTpaTer a j a 6 n A a j e M y A p n ja oa 6oA>er H a o p y H c a a a h Be h e r 6 p o j a O p a H c n ja . B o jc x y j e CBojy 6 h o noAeAHo Y T p H K O A O H e.

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I I o B A a ^ e h jH c e n p e A H a A M o h H H M C H a r a M a H a h c n a j y r c T O T H H a M a h X H A »aA aM a K H A O M e T a p a , o h j e 3 a n c T a n p e c e A > a B a o H H T aB y C B o jy A P ^ a B y , CBe CTaH O BH H U ITBO , 3 a je A H O C S o ra T C T B O M H H a c e o 6 H H a M a, 3 a je A H o c a a n B a M a h K o p e a e M y a H M a , H e C M a a y j y h H h h 3 a n e A a A ), y n p n o c C B e M y T O M e, C B o je yB eK h o b o n ap cT B O . < l> paH H y3H c y T aK O o c B a j a A H c a M o n y c T e K p a j e B e , r A e c y h x A O H eK H B aA e y h c b h a a j H b h m 3 a c e A a M a 6 o A e cT H h rp o 3 H H iie . J e c y a h O H e 6 n A e H a M e p H o o c T aB A se H e? H a h c y MOHCAa o A Y B eK B e 3 a H e 3 a 3eM A >y, H a c r a a e H y h n y c T y ? C a M o p n 6 h H a t o MOHCAa y M e o A a O A TO B opn. J a H e. 3a c e A a M r o A H H a , c e A a M j e n y r a T a x o c e A H O , n o p e A C B or H a p o A a , h B A acT , h o S i r a a j e , h c a B h c h b o t . T aA O p a H n y 3 H , A O A a 3 e h n c h o b h m B o j c x a M a c a c e B e p a h c a H C T O K a, 3 a y 3 M y E o S o - A n y A a c o o r p o M h h m C H a raM a. H m i e M y 3 a n p e T e H e c a M o n p n c T H t a h m a p M H j a M a n iT O c y r a H a n a A a A e c n e A a , H e r o h ja K H M r a p H H 3 0 H H M a 3 a A e b n M a , O H e M o r y h y jy K H M y A O TA e p e A a x H B H o A a K e o n e p a n n j e n o B A a n e a a . tok hah

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paAHHKe h o H3ApacaBaTH AOBOA>aH 6 p o j CTpa>Kapa K o j n 6 h na3H A H A a H e n o S e r a y . I L v a f e a A o c e n o 5 n a p a a h c b h o , a t o j e 6h a o n e T p A e c e T n y r a M a t t e h o n r r o c e A o S n ja A O 3 a h c t h p a A y M e rp o n o A n , h a h o caM A eceT n y r a M a tte h o h i t o c e n A a h a o 6 e A H p a A H H K y k o a o h h j a M a ApHKe. E e c n a p n n a j e T O A H K a 6 n A a A a c y A>yAH 3 6 o r T e n e r a a p a H K e H a ja M H H H e n p e c T a A H A a 6 e x c e c n p y r e , n aK O h x j e p a A H a t t o j A eceT K O B ao: n o p e 3 y j e T p e S a A o H eH H M n A a T H T H . H e M H A o c p A H a p e K B H 3 H H H ja oA H O C H A a j e K o n o K , T y HHy T p a B y o a 6 a o 6 a 6 a , K a y n y K , n a M y K , M a c A O , B o h e . C e A a c y T A aA O B aA a. To H H je 6 h a o C B e. B o jH H H H c y a o h o c h a h n p a 3 H e B p e h e n p e A K y h e h , c e A y o B p a T y , n e ic a A H A a c e H a n y H e . K a A 6h J K e T B a o M a x H y A a , c e A a c y S n A a n p H H y b e H a A a K y n y jy n o c x y n e n a p e je n a M h O B ac y ip a A y k o a T p ro B a u a A a o h H anyH H A H B p e h a p c K o j B o jc im yB eK npa3H e B pehe.

A s a A e c e T h n e r a p n t o a h h c c e rp aA H A a n p y r a o a K a j a h K y A H K o p o a a o E aM aK a. C A B e roA H H e npeKHAa 3 6 o r H cy re r p o 3 H im e K o ja j e 6 n A a n o K o cH A a H exoA H K o A eceT H H a xH & a A a A 4>pH K aH ana h E y p M a H a u a AOBeAeHHx 6poA O B H M a K a o p o6A > e H3 A aA eK e A 3 n je .

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Eaupe ce epahao beanyr y tier zobuna na no Tpu bana, A au rpehu n y r ce n uje eparuo nu n o c n e u ie 3 b e c e r z o b u n a ,

Ocxao je 3ayeetc 3ZH>enen nob zomuaom T e u u c u x n p a zo e a . CaMĆa c e e p a h a o n e r n y r a , u n o c A e nu ica b e u u ie . A oao 3 uo j e c e e M p tu a e u ju u c A a b u ju .

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Mecro da My ce odpadyjeMO, ceu cmo ruiaicajiu nped h>um. Aazice ico repdu da revcaic pad jana Mutuuhe,

Acaice, jep icad ce deanaecc caru du eeu o p a d u 3a r p u (fipamca Mecenno, o d k o ju x ce d e a m ajby ot^y y ce/io da 6u nnaxuo n ope3y, u H ajicpynnuju M/iaduh n p e r e o p u ce y cemcy u Hecrane jednoz nodneea Kao uito ceuKe uecrajy.

Y t o j e B p eM e n y ro B a A O HaniOM 3eMA>OM h m h o r o AOKOHe 6 e A e r o c n o A e . M en>aAH c y n o m e c r k o m yA >a h T p n OAeAa AHeBHO. Y KyepHMa c y h m b a h py6A >a h o A e h e , i m h a h x p a H e 3 a M e c e p A aH a. T p e 6 a A o j e H o c a n a 3 a t o . H eK a A 6 h r y B e p H e p HapeAHO A a c e M o6H A H iiie 3 a je A H o r TaK Bor AOKOH>aKa h n o CTOTHHy A>yAH. Ohh 6 h h o c h a h K y ^ e p e H a K y A p a b h m TAaBaM a h , roA H a o n o j a c a h 6 o c h , h i i i a h 6 h H cn p eA HOCHA>Ke c 6eAHM naT poH O M . K o j n c e A a a y XAaAHo A en e3 0 M o a cAOHOBane, a y B e n e y c b o m c b h AeHOM n ia T o p y n a r a o o a H e c a im n e . H m r r a o KH>nre r m j y h n JK ecro K a ir n h a . B a p A sa A e c e T 6eAHX B ojH H K a n p aT H A o j e c B a K o r TaK Bor n a T p o H a . Oh H H je b o A h o p a n y H a h h o KOMe. C b h c y M op aA H o H>eMy, KOMe j e 6 h a o CBe cB ejeA H O . C p e h a j e 6 n A a KaA 6 h c e n p e M paK a c t h t a o y HeKO ceA O . T a A 6 h b o j h h h h H3 npaTH>e HapeAHAH in e 4 > y A a H aSaB H x p a n y 3 a h o c a n e h h>hx. H lecj) 6 h HapeAHO c e A > a ip a ia A a j e a o H e c y . A M 6 a p n c y c e h H a T aj h b h h h npa3H H A H . J e p 6eA H n a T p o H H H je HHKOMe HH niTa n A a h a o . Oh j e 6 h o t o c t r y B e p H e p a h a h K O M aH A anra. K a A 6 h H o c a n n o c y c T a o n o A TepeTOM h a h o a t a b a h , H H cy r a 6eA H BojHHHH KyHAanHAH. T y K A a c y r a H>eroBa n p H a 6 p a h a n o H a p e b e a y B ojH H K a. M h o i h c y yM H paAH h o a 6aT H H aM a. T e K y 1 9 3 1 . H 3 6 h a c c y Te KpBaBe CTBapn 60

H a M y r a o h c A a 6 o b h a s a o . A AM H H H C Tpaim ja j e n p n H y b e H a 6 n A a A a y S A a x o i o S ir a a j e . He h A a h x c e O A peK H e. To H H je H m n r a . B h a o j e h HcaAOCHHjer:

Ha dcuieKa bo/iasum, crpatme, u hucu nyo 3 a p a r n u H a n o p Acfrpwce vzoju j e o ć o z a r u o

3a6ym am e. C B aK a j e n o p o A H u a 6 n A a AY>KHa A a , y 3 c B a o c T a A a A aBan>a, A o n p H H e c e jeAHHM b b a h k h m n a ic e to m M eceH H o paTHOM H a n o p y M e T p o n o A e . H a p e b e h o j e A a c e t h n aiceT H c xpaHO M h TKaHHHaMa a o H o c e KOMaHAaHTHMa y p e 3 H A e m iH jy . T b p a h a h c y A a t o T aK o T p e 6 a h h h h t h A a 6 h c e y n r r e A e A a n o r n r a p H H a a h i t o S p a c e A on p eM H A a p o 6 a 3apo6A>eHHM paTHHUHMa y X AaAHy T e p M a in ijy .

H a jB e h n 6 p o j t h x n a ic e T a H 3B eT pno 6 h » y cn y T « . H e 3H a c e A a j e H jeA aH c i n r a o a o 3apo6A>eHHHKHX A o r o p a . KoM aHAaHTH c y h x c a 3 a h p o b a i p m a y oB H c y 6 h a h a y > k h h A a M eo A p e b e H y k o a h h h h y H O Biia. Ko H e 6h 6 h C M ea eH . H h je A a H me H H je 6 h o H H je O A ro B o p n o h to m o 6a h k y p a r a o r j e nyHHO y e n o B e S eA H x aAM H H H crpa-

P aT je oraHb Kojn r y r a M H ore n ry M e. C B aica M yiin c a TAaBa 6H A a je o 6 a B e 3 H a A a n o c e n e TpH KybHa M eT p a A p s a M eceHHO h A a h x A on p eM H a o n p y r e .

Ko n e 6 u t o ynuH U o, 6 u o j e r y n e n , k o He 6 u t o y n u H u o o e o z M ecet^a, M o p a o j e u d y h e z d e o c tp y K O d a n o c e n e u caooku y 3 n p y z y .

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K a A 6 h HeKOM A ocaA H A o A a A a j e h c a M o A a je , KaA 6 h n o S e r a o y m y M y , H>eroBo j e c e A o 6 h a o n p n H ybeH O A a nAaTH K a3H y. I le T n y T a B e h y o a A y r a O A Č erAor. A we j e , ceu T o r a , M o p a o A a y p o x y o a 2 4 M aca H a b e 3 aM eH y (S e r y m iy . H n j e h x 3 aTO h h 6 h a o M H oro. Y rrp K o c npoA aH H M A y m a M a , nA abaH H M A a 3aBO A e h H a r o B a p a jy M AaAH be h H en c K y c H e H a SeKCTBa h A p y r e j o i n y H o c H H je n o r o c n o A a p e o 6 a h K e H e n o c A y iiiH o c r H . P a T HMa c p i i e n p e n y H O H 3 r o B o p a 3 a c B a x y H eBOA>y. O h h h h c y A o S p n , n a n n a K M o r y c e n o H eK a A yBaiKHTH. A a h H a n o p n M H pa H H cy ApjmH 6 h a h M H oro A a io n H . Travail de prestation 6 h o j e 0 6 a B e3aH 3 a c B a x o r o a 1 6 . a o 5 9 . roA H H e. A e B e T A aH a r o A H m a e M opaA O c e p a A H r a S e c n A a r a o , o c b o m K p y x y h p y x y . T a M o rA e B A a c r a H a p e A e .

B o r a r a c y M orAH A a c e H c x y n e HOBpeM. IJ e H a j e T a 6 HAa T p H n y x B e b a o a A eB eT H aA H m ja n p H o r paA H H K a. A a h k o j e 6 h o t o a h k o O oraT ? B h a o j e H naK h TaKBHX. M ebyT H M , cBaKH c e TaKaB H H je y c n e B a o A a O T K ynn. IIo A a 3 H A o j e t o 3 a pyKOM c a M o OHHMa K o jn c y CTeKAH n p n ja T e a > c tb o m e tjjo B a . O b h c y jaBHO T B pA h a h A a c y npHjaTeA>H c a M o o h h x K o j n h m A ajy noKAOH e. C b h rpaA O BH , CBe K y h e S e A a p a y B&HMa, CBe h ja B H e 3 r p a A e H 3 r p a b e H e c y S e c n A a r a o n o M o b y K yA yK a. T p r o B a n , mhm 6 h M y n o c a o K p e H y o H a 6 oA>e, 3arp a> K H o 6 h o a KOMaHAaHTa 40, 50 h a h 60 paA H H K a H a H eo A p eb eH H 6 p o j A aH a. A o S n j a o 6 h h x KaA 6 h C B o jy MOA6 y n o T K p e n n o noKAOHOM KOMaHAaHTy. O h r a j e TaA A H m a B a o o 6 a B e 3 e H e c a m o A a nAaTH paA H H K e H e r o h A a h x x p a H H .

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IIo p e3 ? CeM OHor y nAOAOBHMa H>HBa h y ctoijh , OAMax nocA e TaK03BaHe naijHcjmKaimje, yBeAeH je n o p e3 n o rABBH. CBaKe Ase-Tpa roAHHe SnBao je Bmxra. IIoneAO ce c noAa paHKa roAHnn&e, Aa 6 h ce, 1946, 3a npaBO Ha jkhbqt y k o a o h h j hahom p o n cxBy nAahaAO n o 200 paHaKa. A Hame cy nopoAHpe MHoroSpojHe. B hao je oneBa Koja cy MopaAH Aa CTBope 4000, 8000, n a h 12000 4>paHaKa roAHxmte. IHto je 6 hao HeMoryhe. PexmMo, n pe 30 roAHHa nope3a je H3HOcnAa 50 paHaKa n o rAaBH. CeA>aK je TaA npoA asao KHAorpaM khkhph KHja 3a 5 caHTHMa, KHAorpaM n p oca ynoAa Man>e. O n e B H c y y o n a ja i& y A aB aA H O o r a r a M a y 3 a A o r C B o je K h e p H . To j e 6h o ycaob A a hm ce n o 3 a jM H hoB a i i n o x p e S a H 3 a n o p e 3 . Ako H e c p e h m n c H e 6h 3 a ro A H H y A a H a B p a T H O n o 3 a jM H i* y , S o r a T a m j e M o r a o A a y n o T p e S n A e c e T o r o A H n n ty A e B o jq x m y K a K o H a k e 3 a cxoah o. P e T K O 6 h j e y 3 e o 3 a n c e H y . Aah K a A 6h c e h oJK eH H O c h>om, H e 6h M o p a o H H H r r a o u y A a n A a r a 3 a a y . Y H a j 6 oA>eM C A y n a j y 6 h M y O T i m c a o n e o A y r . Ho t o c e p e T K o K a A A e x n a B a A O . Te cy A&B o j n u n e n o c i a j a A e H a H e K O B p e M e A jy S a B H m x e 6 o r a T a m a , a n o c A e 6h, y 3 o T K y n H y u e H y B e h y oa n o 3 a jM H i ie a e H O M o n y , 6 n A e y c T y n a H e S o p A e A H M a h ah

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pena K p e H y . I I o c A e h b k o a h k o CTO TH H a M e x a p a , n a H arA O M y c n o n y H 3 a j e A H e o K y K e , p e n e M eH H » eK C K H 3«, m r o c x b b t h x K a o H eK O H 3B H H > aB an>e 3 6 o r 3 a A p H c a B a H > a H a n y T y , b a h M y H T a ra j e A o cT a A y ro r o B o p n o H eK e r a e B H e p e n n H a BOAOy. — IIlT a K a x te ? — A a h e M eH H p a 3 6 n T H a y n i K y 6 y A e M a h M y j o n i jeA H O M C M e T a o A a p a 3 r o B a p a c 6 o r o M . Y A a 6 e y cm o m o ta h o c T a r a A a npeH ohH M O A a j e M y H T a r a 3 a T e K a o C B o je . A a h a e r o B H T e x m r a a p H H H c y X T eA H A a H a c c a n e K a j y h n p o A y ^ c H A H c y 6 e 3 H a c 3 a O A p e A H in T e . O h c e h 3 b h h h H a p a c r a H K y . » H n j e t h 6 h a o 3aHHM A>HBO. O n p o c x H . K a A c e jeA H O M HsifeeM O y K o H a K p n j y , n p i m a h e M o o C B e M y n r r o T e 3 a H H M a .« Y A H M y3 HH H K o j a j e c T p r a K p e T a A a 3 a M a M y 6 h a o j e je A H O n p a 3 H o M e c T O . 3 a M e H e . M y H T a r a m h r a je h3 m o ah o .

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Ha noBpaTKy, y TaKCHjy y k o m caM ceAeo caMo c jorn jeAHHM CTapHjHM A^pHKaHueM Kpaj mocj>epa, CHiuao caM oneT Ha nnjauH. 3a o h h x 25 4>paHaKa, Ty m h je HeKaKO 6 h a o HajaroAHHje. Aah TeK uito caM onpe3HO CTao Ha npaimt>aBH 3eMA>aHH TpOTOap, HHjH je HHBO HHJKH OA pa3HHe ac4>aATHpaHe pecTe, 3anyjeM HeAaAeKH npoAopHH KpHK. — ApJKTe AonoBa! Y Hepa3yMA>HBoj ctpuh Koja HacTa, cBe je KpeHyAO, jypHAO, npecKaKHBaAo Te3re, Kopne c HapaHuaMa. lIpeKO nnjaHHHX nAOHHua KOTpAjaAe cy ce rAaBe Ty jano CKynor h peTKor AyKa, BaA>ao ce pacyTH KpoMnnp, ra3HO Kynyc h cyBe pH6nue noAOHceHe no acypaMa. Cbh mhphch cy nocTaAH jann. H ja, Kojn caM ce HaAa3Ho join yBen Ha hctom MecTy Ha Koje caM 6ho CTao KaA caM ce MaAonac HCKpnao, h ja caM ocerao KaKo ce jane 3HojHM. A HenoMHHaH. M a A a c e H a cT a B A > aA a T p K a y p a 3 H H M n p a B ii H M a , M a A a c e B H K a A H 3 a A a H 3 p a 3 H H X y rA O B a .

Ko je AonoB? — noKymaBao caM Aa noroAHM. Aah cbh cy jypHAH CBe, 6eHcehH oa cbhx. TaKO mh ce hhhhao Aa caM TAeAao Te CTape h MAaAe rrajanHe TproBne Kano ceBajy npecKanyhn 6ypaA, xpne xpaHe, iHHpoKe Te3re. BehHHOM cy 6hah y ohhm npemnpoKHM h ao 3eMA>e AyrHM rpaH6y 6yHMa. 319

Haj3aA je aoiiob yxBaheH. Bho je to jeAaH cHa3«aH, bhcok ma3ah6/ HcyKaHHx SeAHx 3y6a, y nanTaAOHaMa oa ppHor cepnca h A>y6HnacToj Majnpn HCnOA 6eAHHaCTOCHBe BeTpOBKe OA nOAHBHHHACKe HMHTapuje 3MHjcKe Koace. Boc. Aah cyAefiH no Hejkho HcyTHM neTaMa h TaSaHHMa — oACKopa. IIaMTnhy Ayro OHy BteroBy KpaTKy BeTpoBKy. AsanyT je npojypHO y H>oj icpaj MeHe. Bho je y roMHAH C OCTaAHMa H BHKaO C H>HMa: »AP^c'Te AOnoBa!« Y pypn je AP^cao 3apbaAH neKHh h KaTaHan. OKpynceH caA MacoM pohycTHHx h y36ybeHHx A>yAH, KojH cy cbh y hcth Max roBopHAH, AaxTao je join oa Tpnafta c H3pa30M aTAeTe Kora cHHMajy nocAe cth3ait>a Ha hha», yMopHor, c HemiM 3rabeHHM y KpajeBHMa ycaHa, pa3onapaHHM y onHMa, aAH cpeTHHM Ha jaroAHpaMa h oa h>hx CBe ao y3ApxTaAe o6hhho jadynnpe. To nocAeAH>e, Ta cpeha Ha A n p y My je caMo caA HeAocTajaAa. CpehaH HHje 6ho: ABojnpa cy ra y36ybeHHx nnjanapa ApntaAa 3a pyKe, a Tpehn, noKpaAeHH, oTHmao je no ncaHAapa. OBaj Hnje CTajao AaAeKo oa MeHe. Aah je, Kao h ja, CBe to MHpHO nocMaipao. MnpHHje oa MeHe. IIlTaBHnie, KaA je peAa jypn>aBa Beh oTnoneAa, oh je oKpeHyo Aeba imjapn, hcto HaBAam, Kao Aa ra je 3aHHMaAO HeniTO Apyro, 3aHHMA>HBHje: Ha npHMep — OHCHBeAO npoTHpasbe KOAa H3 rpaAa npeMa aepoApoMy h ošparao. HarAameHO ce mhpho OKpeHyo TproBpy Kojn ra je ByKao 3a pynaB 06jaim&aBajyhn My Aa je noKpaAeH.

— O neMy ce paAH? — OHai TaMO Me noKpao. YxBaTHAH cmo ra Ha AeAy. — IIlTa hy th oHAa ja? To j e 6hao aothhho acaHAapMy Kojn j e mhpho H 6 e 3 HKaKBe paA 03H aA 0CTH n o rA e A a o y n p a B p y A o n o B a. AorHHHo to iraxaH>e H Hje 6hao T p ro B p y . 320

— Keko oirra hem mh? — Bmcao je — ko Tpe6a Aa ra oABeAe y xanc, t h h a h ja? — Ja Tpe6a Aa xBaTaM KpHBiia h Aa ra cnpoBeAeM. — To h Ka>KeM. Eho ra TaMO, crrpoBeAH ra. — n o neMy je oh KpHBaq? HHiirra ja H iic a M BHAeo. — Aah ja th KanceM. — A KO CH TH? — Ja caM TproBau. — TproBaij? 3 a MeHe cy upe caera cbh TproBim AonoBH. HecTO Behn oa ohhx Kojn hx noKpaAajy. 3aTo ja H>HMa mhoto He BepyjeM. — K pahy cy b h acah cbh. Cbh cy ra jypHAH. H cbh n o M o r A H Aa r a yxBaTHMO. — Kojn to cbh? — nHTao je ncaHAap caBpmeHo MHpaH. — Cbh . . . OBa ABojmja Koja r a Apace. H octbah OKOAO HjHX. Jecy AH H OHH TprOBIXH? — Jecy! — pene iproBap oAjeAHOM HecnrypaH y ce6e h CBe. — Aah . . . h ohh cy noiHTeHH rpahaHH OBe 3eMA>e. — TproBim nomTeHH? Cbh cy TproBim AonoBH. Ybck Tpasce BHme, yBeK Ha6njajy peHe, yBeK cKpnBajy po6y HcnoA Te3re, yBeK. . . OqajaH, TproBmih no3Ba pyKOM CBoje npHjaTeA>e h KOAere. — AoBeAHTe ra OBaMo! YxBaheHH ce HHje 6ym io. M hpho je npHA33Ho HcaHAapy. Y pyim je Apacao jom yBeK yKpaAetm HeKHh h KaTaHap. — IIlTa je to 6hao? — ynHTao je AonoBa mhpho yHHeHor craHa, ja caM o6ehao Aa hy joj ncnyHHTH MOA6y, bah hhcbm 6am HMao napa, n a caM . . . 21

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— Th h h c h , ,AaKAe, t o yicpao, H e ro n o 3 a jM H o ? — Aa! — oSpaAOBa ■ce aohob H3HeH3AHoj nomo&h h 3a6p3a inapajy&H OHHMa — 3aMOAno caM ra Aa mh to no3ajMH, oh je npncTao, Aao mh, h KaA caM noqeo Aa ce yAaA>yjeM oa aeroB e Tešre, oh je noBHKao 3a mhom : » A p ^ 'ie AonoBa!« — B h a h ih ! — o K p e H y c e A H K yjyhn n caH A ap n o KpaAeHOM — b h a h h i — h , B H A ehk A a r a .je A o e r a CBeTa O K pyatH A o, n o n c e A e A a o A p n c n MHTHHr: » H n j e T e cpaM O T a! B p a T a A tjjp in c a im a A ancH o o m y n c y je i n . Aa h TaKBH c i e b h T proB ijH . C aM o rA eA aT e A a o m b a n K aT e A>yAe h m h c a h t c K a n o c e 6 n A a -H anpaB H T e peK A aM y!« — n a c e o K p eray H a6ebeH O M A o n o B y : — » B p a r a t h a e M y n e i u i h h KaTaHaix k o j h t h j e n o 3 a jm h o . M eH H 6 a m c a A T p e 6 a A a A o b e cM eH a, n a h y Te oABecTH C B o jo j K yfrk. H M aM j a TaMO cyB H m aH neK H h h KaTaHaiJt. Ja h y t h h x no3ajM H TH . A b h — p a3 A a 3 . H A a BaM H e n aA H e B H m e H a naM eT A a AancHO o n T y n c y j e ie A>yAe. C b h c m o m h 6 p a h a . C b h CMO jeAHO. Ah x . H a n p o iH B . K p a -

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A e c e ; o a o h o t k o H M a . A h m e i i h H H je yB peA A > H B o. A o k ^ c a H A a p . . . 3 A a c y B p e M e H a A o n i A a 3 a T p ro B E je ; H A a H H c y A 4 > p H K aH H H . K o j n j e c y ; 3 a » c a A H A H 6 h 3 a B p e M eH H M a K a A c y c e c b h x c a H A a p H , y ' t b k b h m •c A y n a je B H M a 6 a p , 6 e 3 p a 3 M H n iA > aH > a cTaB A >aA H H a be>hx o B y C T p a H y . H e K a J K y — a i c o 6 h c e c n o p b o a h o H3~ M e fe y 6 e A i i a h r t p H o r . A p y r o j e t o t b a 6 h a o . T a A ’ 6 h jK a H A a p 6 h o H a c r p a H H o e A e , r o c n o A a p e K e , baB O A >e 6 o j e . A a h t o M y j e T a x o — H H K aA A 3 a A o 6 p a y je A H o h H H K aA c B a 3 A a H a je A H O M i — Hena! — t p a h a h cy xcaHAapa noH3AaA>e Apyt h TproBipi. — Yo6pa3HO ce. Jyne je Aoniao H3 u y H rAe, a AaHac HaM a p >k h roBope. Ko je b h a o o 4>a h k

Aa MHTHHryje! CpaMOTa! — C t b h h ! — C H K H y H c a H A a p , p a B H O A y in a H H a T p r o B p e K o j n c y c e B e h p a 3 n n iA H , h y x B a T H H B p c io 3 a p y n y A o n o B a K o j n j e n o n e o n o A a n o A a c e y A a A > y je — y 3 M eH e A a c T o jin n h A a c e rH H c n M aK ao . T o j e p e n a o h b p c th m , h h m e a o a< j> pH K aH C K O -6paT -

ck h m T A a c o M . Y o n n r r e , c a A K a A c y c e T p r o B i p i y A a A jhah h o h o c r a o c a M c A o n o B O M ; K o j e n r r a c e y H>ero B O M A P » a B & y h 3 m c h h a o . — Ilp eA A O H C H o 6 h x t h A a m h K a a c e m H y j e m ! — p e n e AonoB. — A a n e 6 h h M eH e A a n o K p a A e m ?

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— He! — OTe ce KpyiraoM MAaAnhy— oramao 0 6 j bchhm Aa ce cTpnn jom maao aok Te «e cMeHe; na 6hx oa H>e ©HAa Aomao npaBo Te6n Kybn. — A p y K H H j e b e M o m h ! Th h e m T y c r a j a t H c a 6hx ao cTapHpe Aa joj

m h o m a o k M e H e C M e H e . J o m je A a H c a T . A n o c A e h y T e j a oA B ecTH y x a n c . — MeHe? — n y A H o ce M A a A n h . — 3 a m T O ? — 3 a T O m T o c h n o K y m a o Aa n o K p aA em HOBexa, 6 p a T a A 4> pH K aH pa. — A a h o h j e T p ro B a p ! — n o n y c iH M A aA nh — a T p ro B im c y H a jB e h n A o n o B H . — CXaxceM ce. A a h t o HMa npaBa A a h m Kante

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— CAaJKeM ce Aa caM to peKao, jep ja TproBUHMa He JKeAHM Aa AajeM 3a npaBO. H h y n erap n OKa, h h Ha jaBHOM MecTy. Aah ano j a n e boahm TproBpe 3aTO h ito cy AonoBH, ja He boahm h h AonoBe 3axo m ro cy . . . h ito cy . . . — TproBiin! — AoSaiiHM Aa M y n o M o r a e M . — CAanceM ce! — pene, OKpeHy mh ce, no3ApaBH H HOHOBH --- TaHHO . . . TpTOBHH. YKpaAeHO --- IipOA a jy . K o M e ?

— TproBiiHMa! — pene obot n y ra AonoB — h to no neT n y ra jeBTHHHjoj neirn. C ry 6HTKOM mh paAHMo. — l i o neT n y r a jeBTHHHjoj n e H H ? He. A ancern, 6 p a T e A ^ p rn c a m ie . H bh 3 a p a b y je T e . Bac yKpaAeHo H in irra He K o n rra .

— A CTpax? — ynHTa AonoB. TO BaM je 3aAOBOA>CTBO. — A p H 3 H K ? Ja h y caA y xanc. — CAanceM ce! Y xanc. Bap Ha Mecen AaHa. — Je ah to npaBO? HmcaKBe Kopncm hhcbm BHAeo, a y xanc? HAy ah y xanc xproBiiH? — He 6oj ce. H ohh he. JeAHor AaHa. — JeAHor AaHa? A ja? Ja Beh AaHac TpeSa Aa noA>y6HM CBa nernpH 3HAa. Eto, to je TBoja npaBAa! KoSajarn TproBiie He boahhi, bah h>hx hern jeAHor AaHa y xanc, a MeHe, hh KpHBa hh Ay^na, Mene hem OAMax, je ah? A HapoA, HMa ah HapoA mTeTe oa MeHe? Monte ah ce Moj nocao MepHTH c iproBamcHM nAjaHKaiieM HapoAa? — OAaKAe ch th ? — H 3 KyM6e. A th ? — Ja H 3 CoHa, 3eM A > ane! — I\A e ! KaKaB CAynaj! Oa h cth x cmo npeAaKa! — o 6paAOBa c e A o n o B — a jecn a h nyo, 6 p a T e , Aa ce K a n c e : '»KaA HeKO tb p a h Aa My « e T p e S a KyM6a, 3HanH Aa je C oho Ha BHAHKy.«

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— H n c a M . A a h H a t b o m h e b h a h k y 6 h t h CTaAHO O H a j H 3 C o H e . H A a 3 H a m , j a y T B o j y n p i r a y o C T ap m r e H H c a M H o B e p o B a o H H je A H o r T p e H y r i c a . H A a 3H B U I, j a A o n o B e M p 3 H M , h c t o K a o h T p r o B p e . A a h Aa b h a h h i — j a c a M n p a B e A a H H O B eK — O H o r A a H a K aA 6yA eM O n o n e A H A a x a n c H M o T p r o B p e , O H or h y A a H a j a a h h h o h T e 6 e . A c a A O A jy p H O H o j C B o jo j c r a p o j H ceH H h p e p n j o j A a n e i o m h K a T a H a p h h c h HHTAe H a r n a o . C n p a n r a ! H n j e 6h a o n o T p e S H o A a t o n o H O B H . A o n o B j e 3A hm ho. A a h K a A j e 6 h o C K o p o H a y r A y , 3 a c T a A e , O K p eH y c e , c tp b h p y n e H a y c r a h B H K H y: — E j! E j! 5 K aH A ap y ! A a 3H a P i . . . X B aA a! n p n h e M M y.

U3BHHHTe . . . — 3HaM HiTa x o h e m Aa K ancem , crpaH H e! IL \a heH caM A a XBaTaM A onoBe. T o h h h h h m . KaA M ory. A a h o b o j e . . . J a caM h HAaH E p A e a . J a T pe 6 a h n o AHTHHKH A a M HCAHM , H e CaM O n O A H p H j CKH. M O JK A a T a j K y M 6 a H a p H e h e H H K aA B H P ie A a K p a A e . ^ y o c h . 3 a x B a A H O c e . A a a h 6h m h c e 3 a x B a A H o A a c a M r a O A B eo y x a n c ? A O H A a . . . 3 a n o c A e A a e A s e r o A H H e , K o H a K p n c e B H Q ie h o y a b o c tp y h h o . P a 3 y M e n i ? C B e T H e M a B H H ie p a 3 A o r a A a c e c a x p H B a n o p y H T A a M a h nA aH H H aM a. C bh x o h e A a c n h y y rp aA O B e. C A o 6 o A a, t o h H H je 3 a y caM A > e H H K e , H e r o 3 a B e A H K a A p y u i T B a . A ah — M y x a T y n o H H tte h H e C B p m aB a x a n m e ite M n o H e K o r A o n o B n n h a . Y rpaAOBHMa H H je A aK O C H a h n c e TOAHKO 6 p 3 o k o a h k o c e 6 p 3 0 o rA a A H H .

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A a 6 h x A oxuao ao c o u p e -fila , M o pao caM Aa HMaM oto-yMeTHHKa. IIpB H nyT HHje 6h o pacnoA onceH Aa Me CAinca. »3HaM j a B ac«, BHKao j e , » b h m h c a h tc t o j e 3aHaT, a ah j a h y BaM AOKa3a r a Aa j e t o h i t o j a paAhm HHCTa y M e ra o c T . A ofeirre c y r p a « . A PY ™ n y T" »A aH ac HeMa ao b o a> h o c y m ja 3 a B arn y 6AeAy Koacy«. Tpehn nyT Me j e c h h m h o nocA e B ra n e o a n oA a caTa HaMeraTaBba.

TpraiyT caM Mopao Aa aoab3hm h no cj>OTorpa4>nje. IIpBH nyT: »niTa bh m hcahtc, Aa Tpeda Aa ce noAOMHM 36or Bac«. A pyrn nyT: »HncTe bh jeAHHH«. TaA caM y3eo jeAaH oa OTorpa4>Hjy Aa Me TpyAHe nceHe h OMAaAHHa hciioa raecHaecr roAHHa hh y CHy Ha H>oj He BHAe! Ahhho caM Ha 6a6apory. Tpeher AaHa caM noijenao c o u p e -fil, cnaAHO ra CKyna ca CBojHM 4>otocom a neneo pacyo. Aa 3ayBeK 3a6opaBHM Ha crpec Kojn caM a o jkhbco KaA caM ce­ de yrAeAao KaKO TAeAaM HCKpA>eniTeHO h TaKo AaA>e y jaAHor cede; KaA caM, jeAHOM penn, dapno norAeA Ha cede cj>OTorpaHcaHor y yMeramncoj odpaAH My-

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im ra a B o r K O H aK pnjcK or »cneunjaA H CTe 3 a u p H e h 6 eAe, H a p o 'q m o nopoAHHHe cAmce, M oace h MpTBaiie«. A o 6p o , o a T o r c o u p e - fila HHje o c T a o h h n e n e o . Y3aAyA caM c e HaM ynHo: HHje m h y o n n r r e 6h o n o T p e 6 aH. H a h cy Me 3aAy^KeHH noAHpajuH Befe H03HaBaAH, h a h hm HHcaM yAHBao HenoBepeH>e, xeK 3a OHa Tpn AaHa nojanaHor nopeTKa, npoAa3Ho caM cByAa h yAa3 h o naK h y IIpeAceAHHKOBy pe3HAeHipijy a Aa Me h h k o HHje aaycTaBHO, h h marao 3a nponycHHpy. M ohcasi h 3aTO h i t o caM CTH3ao npBH CByAa. IIpBH caM Aomao h Ha Taj AaH BeAHKe napaAe AO Mecia OApeheHor 3a HiTaMny y npBOM, Hajhhjkcm peAy AeBo o a npoAa3a 3a Aoncy Tpn npeAceAHHKa: HnpyMaxa, M o a h 6 o KeHTe h AOMafenHa CeKy Typea, 3a Ty AOJKy HCKHfeeHy 3eAeHHAOM, filHAHMHMa h 3aCTaBaMa. TaA caM, Kao h i t o caM peKao, HMao caMo HeKonHpaHH ham 3aAeiiAjeH 3a c o u p e -fil. Aa m h ra je h c k o 3aTpajKHo, cnrypHo Me He 6h npeno3Hao h He 6h — nycTHo.

IIporpaM — Kojn caM Hamao OAiirraMnaH H a cBojoj c t o a h h h — 6 h o je pHropo3aH, H3panyHaT H a MHHyre. IIpeABHbao je Aa fee ce aBHOH HKpyMaxa; crrycTHTH y 15,02 Ha aepoApoM, Aa fee y 15,05 nonera o6HAa3aK nocipojeHe nonacHe neTe, Aa fee y 15,15 6 h t h oACBHpaHe o 6e xHMHe, Aa fee ce nocAe T o c t h AoMafeHH Ao 15,30 3aApacaTH y caAOHy aepoApoMa, Aa 6h nocAe, o a 15 nacoBa h 32 MmryTa, AoMafeHH-IIpeAceAHHK noHOBHo a o 15,45 h c t h npot o k o a ca ApyrHM IIpeAceAHHKOM-rocTOM, M o a h 6 om KeHTOM. Y 16 cara h 6 MHtryra TpeSaAo je Aa omoHHe MHTHHT H A^HAe. Iloneo je ca caTOM 3aKaiHH>eHia, h i t o je Ao6po (jyne caM 6 h o Ha jeAHOM naprajcKOM cacTaHKy 3a aKTHB III rpaACKor pejoHa, Ha k o m je TpeSaAo Aa caM Cej4>yAaj, Apyra h o b c k , oprceKpeTap BAaAajyfeer IleAeJKea (AeMOKpaTCKa nap raj a iBHHeje) o a p hch npeAaBaite. PaAHo-KoHaKpH je join npeKjyne 06jaBHO Aa fee cacraHaic »oraoyera t b h h o .y npeiiH3HO 327

3aKa3aHO BpeMe«, a to TaHHO h npeipi3Ho 3aKa3aHo BpeMe 6hao j e OApebeHO, 6ap npeMa Toj n c x o j eMHc n j n , — »Ta^Ho oko noAa Tpn«). npeAaBaae je Cej4>yAaja OTnoneAo y. noAa ceAaM. TpajaAo je ao noAa AeceT. Aah, c ocraAHM TanKaMa AHeBHor peAa, 3aBpiueH0 je CBe oko noHohn. T o c e AecHAo j y ^ e - Aah A a n a c j e n p B o CeK y T y p e , y 6 eAOM rp a H 6 y 6y y , n p e A a o OAAHKOBaH>e » C o m p a g n o n d e V In d e p e n d e n c e « M o a h S y KeHTH. OHAa c y CBa T p n npeAceAHHica, oa K o jn x j e jeAHHH H K pyM ax 6ho y eBponcKOM OAeAy, iioaojkhah BeHau n p eA jeAHocTaBHHM cnoMeHHKOM sK p T eoM a n e u u w y 6 o p 6 u n p o r u e vzonoHU]cuiu3Ma, cnoMeHHKOM K o jn c e HaAa3H H a T p ry n p e K o n y r a t p h 6 h h c . OACBHpaHe c y noHOBO CBe T p n XHMHe h n a p a A a j e M orAa Aa OTIIOHHe.

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